Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Our lives are always going through constant change. Some great, some not so great, but how about when great and not so great collide? Well our family has found ourselves in the middle of such a time. Very few if any of you may ever know what we have or what we are going through but know this unless you HAVE been living in our daily lives you have no clue to what we have been going through much less what has manifested itself this last week. The changes we are embarking on may change our whole way of life for the better, but the loss and regret we feel will emerge from time to time to remind us of what we have endured. We can never turn back time all we can do it rebuild with the time we have left. To live and love every day as if it may be your last. No matter how much you try to do good, sometimes it can never be played out the way you would have liked it to go. When you know something is wrong but you can't put your finger on it, then one day when it surfaces, you are face to face with it, then you look back and the signs were all there, but life always full of things to do just didn't let you in on what was right there staring at you all the time. Our family needs time to heal and move forward but how do you heal when the thing that needs healing no one wants to talk about, or doesn't want to talk about because it is so painful? There are so many people affected by this one thing, and yet we can only wonder how many of the affected have come forward so that they may begin to heal their own lives. We have the power in us from the Lord above to overcome anything, but even my faith has crashed down at this time. Not faith in Jesus just faith in people. I had faith I could change a life for the better, but in that faith I gave trust where there should have been none. I have always had a hard time trusting people I guess I only really ever trusted my parents. Not that I didn't give trust to people because I did and over and over again it has been thrown in my face. I guess that is why I am so open about our lives in my blogs, because if it is going to be out it might as well be the truth and not what people think it is or what they want people to think it is. There are few things I will not blog about and believe me there isn't much I am not willing to blog about. I guess my point behind blogging today is to open the eyes of people around the world as to trust carefully and keep an eye open for the things that just don't seem right and continue to pay attention and figure out what it is that you can't put your finger onto. You just might catch it before it gets out of hand, and before it hurts too many lives. Take head my friends watch carefully for what you thought was love may have only been masked by the hate of another.